July! (and Its Bits and Pieces and Miscellany)

Prologue: Tedium.

It has been a week since the month of July raises its curtain so I suppose it's time for an update. Better not keep all of you guessing about my whereabout.

Obligatory snap of the rental invoice a.k.a a cold reminder of time passing and economy austerity...but with an addendum: application for extension for on campus accommodation...which amplifies the cold reminder into sub-zero, bone chilling level of omen. Or it's just a rental invoice.

Some bits here and there that piqued my interest to take a snap:

Apparently there's forum going on today about Women and Politics in campus today organised by yet another NGO dubiously linked with current government and most likely propped up solely for mobilising support for the current government, complete with the overused cliche 1Malaysia logo. Then again, I wonder who turn up as panel or hows the turn out for that forum anyway especially since it's already a week into the semester holiday and basically there's no crowd in campus. There are people though but not crowd.

Staying in the theme of Malaysian politic, apparently Anwar the perennial PM-in-waiting egomaniacpowermongerasshole is poised to be the next (7th) PM of Malaysia or at least that what it's shown on the banner of an PKR Indian community event hanging right outside the fence of my campus. What confidence.

...and immediately right across the road from the banner is a silent showdown of colour. It was actually PKR's flags that propped up first before BN sycophants noticed it and decided that they don't want to be outdone by them and counter back by propping their own flags in slightly bigger numbers and one longer pole to stood up. Say, how is this going to be accounted for according to the election law of Malaysia? This showing of flag immediately reminded me about those hastily created Facebook photo shares (Share button is a devil's creation.) about BN setting up campaign war room some where in Johore or something despite the fact it's at least 10 months away before the current governments's mandate automatically expires. As much as people ceaselessly whine and insinuate about the current government deliberately delay GE, I would just say what's the fuss? The election WILL definitely come in ten month's because its inevitable five year mandate provision. About that so-called "oddities" of no compulsory date of dissolution but a rather loose time frame? That's the idiosyncrasy of Westminster Parliamentary system but that doesn't mean the US system of rigid date of dissolution is better. Not that I condone the shortcomings of the current government but just saying. As for the alleged election campaign room: probably it has been like that since 2008, deserted and unattended just like BN itself.

Some odd pieces of me.

Plus 2's wantan mee besar with wontons and green chilli slices and barli peng as brunch. Simple pleasures on a Sunday morning. 

Behold, the Number of the Beast! Ok fine, it's just 1/100 of it. When was last time I reloaded my mobile phone credit anyway. Oh well, with so little phone call or message that I have these days (a reflection of my lack of social life), it probably will last for a while. 

Is this it? Of course not because there are more materials to be blogged about. As usual not entirely sure when's the next post going to be especially since my middle finger gone swollen after I accidentally tear into the flesh around the edge of the finger nail as I habitually chew my finger nail. *cue rounds of disgust* The tip of my middle finger red, bulging and pulsing with dull pain and it's pretty obvious a small pus has developed around that bits of opening. I am getting more irate than ever as it's hidden in the crevice and out of reach and prick it while the nagging pain continues.

后语：2012年7月5日 (星期四), 大概晚上7点半，我决堤了。

虽然在过去五年之中有面对过好几次频临决堤的状况，可是遍遍就在上星期四我忽然无预料下全面崩溃，泪水决堤而咆哮痛哭。就因为来之妈的电话，询问我的近况及要不要回古晋休息一下。我吓倒我妈，我也吓倒我自己。是因为平常妈来电的时候自己却身在别处而没有认真想过要不要回家一下，反而在必须要作决定的时候却完全无法果断而感到惊惶？(最讨厌亚航网上订购机票机票价格不停上上下下，再来忽然大促销，完全捉摸不定，一切都要在忽然之下决定。不心脏病才怪) 的还是因为内心其实深处真的很想家可是想到身边有不少顾虑及隐忧时而犹豫？我只记得我泪水的爆发点是在当我很犹豫的跟我妈说我不用回而我妈跟我说好好照顾自己的时候。到最后我为什么痛哭呢？说不定就只是单纯的因为我不知道。我已经完全不知道我的未来应该会是怎样。想当年(其实也只不过是五年前而已) 对自己的未来还有点憧憬，目标，决定，大概知道未来的我会是怎样的我已经荡然无存了。留下的只是行尸走肉，空壳，一个非完整的人类。青年危机吗这个？

还在那稳重的老三也在电话的另一边接手而慎重的半开导我才安定下来。就在平静下来的那瞬间才决定大概是时候回家休息一下，机票也当场定了。(虽然说实在我已经算休息过久了，就只是心有余而力不足，心力交瘁。)

未来...大概会更好吗？(插曲: 最近槟城天气太棒了，时不时下雨而雨后晴空万里，上个月尾烟雾期间的晦气也完全消失了。不过这个风景其实在下雨前拍的。难道未来会黑暗？*优柔寡断的我想太多了* 算了，睡觉吧。Meanwhile, did you see the car at the bottom of the picture? It was stuck in the ditch as I took it and it took a hour of collective aid and ingenuity/brute strength to relief the car from its trouble. Live broadcast as I witness the scene!